Hey everyone!
I'm definitely trying to remember if i wrote an update for you all last week, i should have checked before i began this post...oh well...how yah'll doin? I'm in much better spirits from the past week or so because i have finally begun to see a SLIGHT difference when i look in the mirror when i have on certain outfits and i also feel a SLIGHT difference in some of my jeans...girl they still tight but some just don't feel as tight lol.

So I'm still working out with my personal trainer three times a week (no i haven't quit yet), AND I've been doing some workouts on my own as well other than the Wii with my boyfriend. I have incorporated cardio. I decided that I knew what worked for me before when I lost weight so i figured that i could just begin to do that again in-conjunction with my trainer workouts
and i think it's been paying off.

Now my eating you ask, still isn't the best but i am definitely still trying to do better...one day at a time.

So my weigh in is on Saturday the 20th so i will be back to update you all on my progress then.

See you next week! *waves*

Lifestyle Change Update

Hey guys, I don't remember if I mentioned this in my last post but I am getting so discouraged. Now here's the thing, working with my personal trainer I am NOT supposed to weigh myself she does it once a month, and I have to use everything in me not to get on the scale. My boyfriend even went as far as taking the batteries out for me so that I wouldn't be tempted. So, I've been relying on the way that my clothes are fitting, which is the way my personal trainer suggested that I would see the change but I'm not seeing any changes in the way my clothes are fitting me so I am definitely getting discouraged. I keep wondering amI losing any weight? Have I gained more weight? Is it muscle that I've gained why I see no difference? What the hell is it?

Everyone keeps telling me "oh it's the muscle that you're gaining" but for some reason I don't believe that, I need to see or feel like I've lost something. I've been working so damn hard with my eating even though I mess up here and there and I've been going in on my workouts with my personal trainer and sometimes I even workout at home with my boyfriend. I've done this before by myself and I've seen differences in how my clothes fit and also on the scale. So, I'm going to stick in there until the 13th when I weigh myself with my trainer and hopefully the scale tells me something that I want to hear if not I'm going to go back to do what was working for me before.

Now I know you're probably saying Marsha don't give up, but I don't look at it as giving up I am still going to be on my lifestyle change because I need to, I need to be healthy for my self and for my family so I'm not giving up but I also don't want to waste my time or money with a personal trainer where I'm not seeing results when I can see results doing it on my own like I've done before.

So as you can see this entry is slightly  different from the last few I don't really have an update about my workout, I still feel great afterwards and sore the next day but right now its just my mental that needs some working out.

Kicking it up a notch

So for the past week most of my workout that I've been doing with my trainer has consisted of me using free weights (next week it's resistance bands :-( ) and it has been kicking my ass and she knows this. So this morning I woke up to a text with the picture that I have attached and after reading it I was like ok now I get...gimme thale weights NOW lol. So I decided to share this with all of you you didn't know this already.

So my week....
I worked out back to back on friday and saturday with my trainer and I will admit right now that that shit was hard as hell, my body didn't get the day of rest that it was used to so I was sore all over and we're doing it again tonight, I worked out yesterday because I had to reschedule monday and I'm working out tonight and this week we go for longer intervals so it was extremely challenging. But like I have said before I know it will all be worth it in the end.

My eating....
Again isn't the best but I am definitely trying to do better. I slip up here and there but I don't let it get me off track.

So again this week I am feeling good though the workouts are becoming more difficult. Thanksgiving is tomorrow and I told my trainer that I WILL be eating, hut so my workouts aren't being done in vain I will enforce portion control :-).

Week 2 of Training

I know i know i am late with my post, but i have a good reason....uhhh, i really don't lol. I've been training with my personal trainer and I must say that this second week is most definitely harder than the first, but she warn me before hand telling me that it was going to get more intense as the weeks go on...sigh, she wasn't lying. The workouts are more strenuous but they are definitely worth it in the end, I feel everything during and after but because I workout at nights i don't get that great feeling until the next morning, i have more energy to go about my day as well as concentrate on my little girl because the bigger she gets the more active she is and the harder it is to keep up with her, which is one of the main reasons i began my journey again, i want to be able to keep up with my daughter as she grows and runs around the place, i don't want to be losing my breath while playing games with her, feel me.

So back to my trainer...she wants me to keep a journal where i write all of my meals down but i use MyFitnessPal for that and she also wants me to write how i'm feeling after our workouts which is challenging for me to do because sometimes i just honestly forget, so i figured my weekly blog post will accomplish that and i will just sum my week up here and just email it to her.

My eating isn't going as well as i would like, i am doing better but i find myself messing up here and there craving sweets, rice and bread...especially when T.O.M was in town the past few days. But i went grocery shopping with my mother this morning, which made me late for class so i  decided not to go and that is why i am able to write this post now (I hope I don't fail my class though :-\ ). So like i was saying, i went to the grocery store, picked up some fruits, my salads, some healthy snacks, and i plan on going to Target after my last class to pick up some more things so that i won't crave craziness while home.

So that's pretty much all i have to say for now
...if you have instagram please feel free to follow me:
Marsha_GetsFit (my weight loss one)
Marsha__J (my personal one, it has two underscores.

Oh and add me on MyFitnessPal:
ShaSoConfident

See you all again next week :-)

I got me a personal trainer!

So as the title states...I got myself a personal trainer. We did an assessment on Saturday to see what I can do, that was truly the hardest workout that I have ever experienced in my life. My thighs were so sore afterwards but I felt really good....BUT, that following morning when I was getting out of bed I was so sore, like I mean painfully sore. My boyfriend encouraged me by telling me that that's how I know I worked my ass off the night before...I really did though.

So my trainer and I worked out a schedule where we workout Monday, Wednesday and Friday,  I just really hope that I can handle three days. My mind is telling me I'll be fine because I'm not doing back to back days. We will see though. My boyfriend and I also workout using the wii where we play tennis, bowling and baseball which is a good workout as well. I hope to continue that two to three days out the week when I don't have training.

Anywho...I just wanted to share this little info with you all and I will definitely be keeping you posted as time passes.

Back at it

So I'm back at my journey for the millionth time. I've failed before I admit that, but you know what this is a lifestyle change so I have to keep at it. We fail sometimes but we just gotta get right back up, dust ourselves off and get right back on it ... and that's exactly what I am doing. So wish me luck.

I'm going to TRY and commit to writing my blog every sunday to recap my week. Hopefully that will help to keep me on track. I need to get my health under control for both me and my daughter, I want to live a long life and watch her grow into an amazing lady.

I am on MyFitnessPal: ShaSoConfident so feel free to friend me.

I am slow on instagram but I am thinking about creating a whole new one for my journey...we'll see.

Anywho....have a great night everyone until next week :-)

"I Love Your Confidence"

"I love your confidence"...that comment bothers the hell out of me. I hate when I get dressed and go out or take a picture and post it on Instagram or Facebook and someone comments saying "I love your confidence". I know to some that comment is seen as a compliment but to me it seems as a put down. I'm tempted to ask these individuals like do you look at an "average" size person and make that comment...NO! But, you're going to come at me with it because I am big? I get dressed and put on what I like just the same as the other person but because I am big it takes courage to wear what you like and feel comfortable in?

I know some people may believe that I am blowing this out of proportion and reading too much into it but I disagree. I hate comments like that, I feel that it's the same as looking at me and saying "you're pretty for a big girl" or "you're pretty for a dark skin girl" or "you have such a pretty face"...what kind of back handed compliments are those?

My opinion

New Mommy

Hey there everyone I know that it has been ages since I wrote my last post about being pregnant and how it really isn't for me. Now I have had my little girl and she is 7 weeks old and I love her to pieces. I did not think that it was even possible to love someone this much.

Now my labor/delivery was the worst experience ever. I've never been through so much pain in my entire life and to be completely honest I will not be having any more children because I can not imagine going through all that pain again or the recovery process of a c-section. Everyone tells me that I'm just saying that now...but I'm not just saying it...I really do mean it.

Well I just wanted to come and briefly update you all and I hope to be writing more soon.
Until then...

Enjoy your day!

Plus Size & Pregnant: Pregnancy is NOT for me

I am more than half way through my third trimester,  I knew that because I had it pretty easy my first and second trimester that the third was going to kick my ass...and I was right.

Through my third trimester thus far I have had my blood pressure sky rocket which my blood pressure is usually normal, I had to do a 24 hour urine test because of my blood pressure to check for preeclampsia (protein in urine). The protein level needed to be under 300 but it was at 316 so the doctor had me admitted to the hospital for 5 flipping days (mind you I've never been admitted to an hospital a day in my life so I was terrified). They has my hooked up to an IV that pumped me with magnesium,  they gave me steriods shots to help the baby's lungs mature faster in case of preterm labor and I got a total of 19 needles. So you van only imangine how I was feeling.

From setting foot in the hospital my blood pressure was normal but i had to stay because it was the doctor's orders. When it was time to finally go home I wanted to do cartwheels out that hospital.

Since being out of the hospital I had to get a blood pressure monitor to take my pressure twice a day (thank God my mom is a nurse and had one readily available), I was and still am extremely weak, I lose my breath at times which is pretty damn scary and I just overall do not feel like myself. I just want this pregnancy to be over and my baby be safe and healthy.

P.S. - I got admitted to the hospital at the beginning of my 32nd week, I'm 33 weeks now and the doctors are hoping that I can keep the baby in until at least 35 weeks.