Lifestyle Change Update

Hey guys, I don't remember if I mentioned this in my last post but I am getting so discouraged. Now here's the thing, working with my personal trainer I am NOT supposed to weigh myself she does it once a month, and I have to use everything in me not to get on the scale. My boyfriend even went as far as taking the batteries out for me so that I wouldn't be tempted. So, I've been relying on the way that my clothes are fitting, which is the way my personal trainer suggested that I would see the change but I'm not seeing any changes in the way my clothes are fitting me so I am definitely getting discouraged. I keep wondering amI losing any weight? Have I gained more weight? Is it muscle that I've gained why I see no difference? What the hell is it?

Everyone keeps telling me "oh it's the muscle that you're gaining" but for some reason I don't believe that, I need to see or feel like I've lost something. I've been working so damn hard with my eating even though I mess up here and there and I've been going in on my workouts with my personal trainer and sometimes I even workout at home with my boyfriend. I've done this before by myself and I've seen differences in how my clothes fit and also on the scale. So, I'm going to stick in there until the 13th when I weigh myself with my trainer and hopefully the scale tells me something that I want to hear if not I'm going to go back to do what was working for me before.

Now I know you're probably saying Marsha don't give up, but I don't look at it as giving up I am still going to be on my lifestyle change because I need to, I need to be healthy for my self and for my family so I'm not giving up but I also don't want to waste my time or money with a personal trainer where I'm not seeing results when I can see results doing it on my own like I've done before.

So as you can see this entry is slightly  different from the last few I don't really have an update about my workout, I still feel great afterwards and sore the next day but right now its just my mental that needs some working out.

Week 2 of Training

I know i know i am late with my post, but i have a good reason....uhhh, i really don't lol. I've been training with my personal trainer and I must say that this second week is most definitely harder than the first, but she warn me before hand telling me that it was going to get more intense as the weeks go on...sigh, she wasn't lying. The workouts are more strenuous but they are definitely worth it in the end, I feel everything during and after but because I workout at nights i don't get that great feeling until the next morning, i have more energy to go about my day as well as concentrate on my little girl because the bigger she gets the more active she is and the harder it is to keep up with her, which is one of the main reasons i began my journey again, i want to be able to keep up with my daughter as she grows and runs around the place, i don't want to be losing my breath while playing games with her, feel me.

So back to my trainer...she wants me to keep a journal where i write all of my meals down but i use MyFitnessPal for that and she also wants me to write how i'm feeling after our workouts which is challenging for me to do because sometimes i just honestly forget, so i figured my weekly blog post will accomplish that and i will just sum my week up here and just email it to her.

My eating isn't going as well as i would like, i am doing better but i find myself messing up here and there craving sweets, rice and bread...especially when T.O.M was in town the past few days. But i went grocery shopping with my mother this morning, which made me late for class so i  decided not to go and that is why i am able to write this post now (I hope I don't fail my class though :-\ ). So like i was saying, i went to the grocery store, picked up some fruits, my salads, some healthy snacks, and i plan on going to Target after my last class to pick up some more things so that i won't crave craziness while home.

So that's pretty much all i have to say for now
...if you have instagram please feel free to follow me:
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Marsha__J (my personal one, it has two underscores.

Oh and add me on MyFitnessPal:
ShaSoConfident

See you all again next week :-)

"I Love Your Confidence"

"I love your confidence"...that comment bothers the hell out of me. I hate when I get dressed and go out or take a picture and post it on Instagram or Facebook and someone comments saying "I love your confidence". I know to some that comment is seen as a compliment but to me it seems as a put down. I'm tempted to ask these individuals like do you look at an "average" size person and make that comment...NO! But, you're going to come at me with it because I am big? I get dressed and put on what I like just the same as the other person but because I am big it takes courage to wear what you like and feel comfortable in?

I know some people may believe that I am blowing this out of proportion and reading too much into it but I disagree. I hate comments like that, I feel that it's the same as looking at me and saying "you're pretty for a big girl" or "you're pretty for a dark skin girl" or "you have such a pretty face"...what kind of back handed compliments are those?

My opinion

New Mommy

Hey there everyone I know that it has been ages since I wrote my last post about being pregnant and how it really isn't for me. Now I have had my little girl and she is 7 weeks old and I love her to pieces. I did not think that it was even possible to love someone this much.

Now my labor/delivery was the worst experience ever. I've never been through so much pain in my entire life and to be completely honest I will not be having any more children because I can not imagine going through all that pain again or the recovery process of a c-section. Everyone tells me that I'm just saying that now...but I'm not just saying it...I really do mean it.

Well I just wanted to come and briefly update you all and I hope to be writing more soon.
Until then...

Enjoy your day!

Ladies Night Out Outfit: Cute & Comfortable

It's ladies night out and we wanted to have some out here in Canada...I thought I would share with everyone what I decided to wear. I wanted to be comfortable and cute at the same time, and I must say that I think that I pulled it off pretty well.

Wedges by Marc Fisher

I purchased these from Marshalls for $24.99

Sweetheart Jeans by Old Navy

On Sale $16.99 regularly $30

Striped Chiffon Tank by Old Navy

On Sale $13.99

Well Said....

Gorgeous

Khloe Kardashian is a beautiful women and is sometimes made to feel less than that because of the media and her sisters Kim and Kourtney Kardashian which is sometimes mind boggling to me. I look at Khloe and think of the "average" size women in America....they have curves.

I am a plus size woman and its so damn annoying how the media sometimes portray us and the views that some people have about us. Why the fuck is my size an issue for you? I can't comprehend why it affects your ass so much that you sometimes feel the need to run your mouth and pass judgement.

Some people just need to grow the fuck up. Curves are beautiful! But if it bothers you so much then look the fuck away.....simple as that.

Have a great day everyone :-)