Lifestyle Change Update

Hey guys, I don't remember if I mentioned this in my last post but I am getting so discouraged. Now here's the thing, working with my personal trainer I am NOT supposed to weigh myself she does it once a month, and I have to use everything in me not to get on the scale. My boyfriend even went as far as taking the batteries out for me so that I wouldn't be tempted. So, I've been relying on the way that my clothes are fitting, which is the way my personal trainer suggested that I would see the change but I'm not seeing any changes in the way my clothes are fitting me so I am definitely getting discouraged. I keep wondering amI losing any weight? Have I gained more weight? Is it muscle that I've gained why I see no difference? What the hell is it?

Everyone keeps telling me "oh it's the muscle that you're gaining" but for some reason I don't believe that, I need to see or feel like I've lost something. I've been working so damn hard with my eating even though I mess up here and there and I've been going in on my workouts with my personal trainer and sometimes I even workout at home with my boyfriend. I've done this before by myself and I've seen differences in how my clothes fit and also on the scale. So, I'm going to stick in there until the 13th when I weigh myself with my trainer and hopefully the scale tells me something that I want to hear if not I'm going to go back to do what was working for me before.

Now I know you're probably saying Marsha don't give up, but I don't look at it as giving up I am still going to be on my lifestyle change because I need to, I need to be healthy for my self and for my family so I'm not giving up but I also don't want to waste my time or money with a personal trainer where I'm not seeing results when I can see results doing it on my own like I've done before.

So as you can see this entry is slightly  different from the last few I don't really have an update about my workout, I still feel great afterwards and sore the next day but right now its just my mental that needs some working out.

Kicking it up a notch

So for the past week most of my workout that I've been doing with my trainer has consisted of me using free weights (next week it's resistance bands :-( ) and it has been kicking my ass and she knows this. So this morning I woke up to a text with the picture that I have attached and after reading it I was like ok now I get...gimme thale weights NOW lol. So I decided to share this with all of you you didn't know this already.

So my week....
I worked out back to back on friday and saturday with my trainer and I will admit right now that that shit was hard as hell, my body didn't get the day of rest that it was used to so I was sore all over and we're doing it again tonight, I worked out yesterday because I had to reschedule monday and I'm working out tonight and this week we go for longer intervals so it was extremely challenging. But like I have said before I know it will all be worth it in the end.

My eating....
Again isn't the best but I am definitely trying to do better. I slip up here and there but I don't let it get me off track.

So again this week I am feeling good though the workouts are becoming more difficult. Thanksgiving is tomorrow and I told my trainer that I WILL be eating, hut so my workouts aren't being done in vain I will enforce portion control :-).

Week 2 of Training

I know i know i am late with my post, but i have a good reason....uhhh, i really don't lol. I've been training with my personal trainer and I must say that this second week is most definitely harder than the first, but she warn me before hand telling me that it was going to get more intense as the weeks go on...sigh, she wasn't lying. The workouts are more strenuous but they are definitely worth it in the end, I feel everything during and after but because I workout at nights i don't get that great feeling until the next morning, i have more energy to go about my day as well as concentrate on my little girl because the bigger she gets the more active she is and the harder it is to keep up with her, which is one of the main reasons i began my journey again, i want to be able to keep up with my daughter as she grows and runs around the place, i don't want to be losing my breath while playing games with her, feel me.

So back to my trainer...she wants me to keep a journal where i write all of my meals down but i use MyFitnessPal for that and she also wants me to write how i'm feeling after our workouts which is challenging for me to do because sometimes i just honestly forget, so i figured my weekly blog post will accomplish that and i will just sum my week up here and just email it to her.

My eating isn't going as well as i would like, i am doing better but i find myself messing up here and there craving sweets, rice and bread...especially when T.O.M was in town the past few days. But i went grocery shopping with my mother this morning, which made me late for class so i  decided not to go and that is why i am able to write this post now (I hope I don't fail my class though :-\ ). So like i was saying, i went to the grocery store, picked up some fruits, my salads, some healthy snacks, and i plan on going to Target after my last class to pick up some more things so that i won't crave craziness while home.

So that's pretty much all i have to say for now
...if you have instagram please feel free to follow me:
Marsha_GetsFit (my weight loss one)
Marsha__J (my personal one, it has two underscores.

Oh and add me on MyFitnessPal:
ShaSoConfident

See you all again next week :-)

I got me a personal trainer!

So as the title states...I got myself a personal trainer. We did an assessment on Saturday to see what I can do, that was truly the hardest workout that I have ever experienced in my life. My thighs were so sore afterwards but I felt really good....BUT, that following morning when I was getting out of bed I was so sore, like I mean painfully sore. My boyfriend encouraged me by telling me that that's how I know I worked my ass off the night before...I really did though.

So my trainer and I worked out a schedule where we workout Monday, Wednesday and Friday,  I just really hope that I can handle three days. My mind is telling me I'll be fine because I'm not doing back to back days. We will see though. My boyfriend and I also workout using the wii where we play tennis, bowling and baseball which is a good workout as well. I hope to continue that two to three days out the week when I don't have training.

Anywho...I just wanted to share this little info with you all and I will definitely be keeping you posted as time passes.

Back at it

So I'm back at my journey for the millionth time. I've failed before I admit that, but you know what this is a lifestyle change so I have to keep at it. We fail sometimes but we just gotta get right back up, dust ourselves off and get right back on it ... and that's exactly what I am doing. So wish me luck.

I'm going to TRY and commit to writing my blog every sunday to recap my week. Hopefully that will help to keep me on track. I need to get my health under control for both me and my daughter, I want to live a long life and watch her grow into an amazing lady.

I am on MyFitnessPal: ShaSoConfident so feel free to friend me.

I am slow on instagram but I am thinking about creating a whole new one for my journey...we'll see.

Anywho....have a great night everyone until next week :-)

Diet Talk: GNC Total Lean Shakes & Smoothie/Shake Recipes Under 200 Calories

So I love making smoothies and using them as meal replacements, especially when I am on the go. I would make them the night before and pop them in my freezer if I know I'm not going to have time the following day and grab them on my way out the door. They are also really great as a pre-workout meal.

So I decided that I had to share the recipe with you all. I hope you try them.

Definitely let me know how they come out and if you tweaked them at all so maybe I can give it a shot.

FRUIT SMOOTHIE USING INDIVIDUAL BAGS OF FRUIT
-1/4 cup of each fruit (2 pieces)
(pineapple, peaches, mango, strawberries)
-1/2 small banana
-1 tbsp. oats
-3/4 cup Tropicana 50 Orange Juice
-1/2 tbsp. honey
-1/3 cup of spinach

Calories = 200....(182 if you minus the oats)      
Fat = 0g
Carbs = 39.8g                                             Fiber = 2g
Protein = 2g                                               Sugar = 40g

FRUIT SMOOTHIE USING MIXED FRUIT BAG
-8 pieces of fruit
and the rest of the recipe stays the same

Calories = 181...(162 if you minus the oats)   
Fat = 0
Carbs = 22g       Fiber = 2g
Sugar = 27g       Protein = 3g

VANILLA PROTEIN SMOOTHIE (9-10 ounces) (Use Blender)
-1/2 cup of vanilla Almond milk
-1/2 cup of water
-1/2 medium banana
-Dash of cinnamon
-1 scoop of GNC vanilla protein powder
-Ice (5-8 cubes)
-2 stevia or 2 equal

Calories = 138         Fat = 3g
Carbs = 16g            Sugar = 8.2g
Fiber = 2.5g            Protein = 13.5g

And if I decide that I don't feel like going through it and making my own, I turn to my good ole GNC Total Lean, Lean Shakes which come in three different flavors (Strawberry Cream, Vanilla Bean and Chocolate). It retails for $9.99 per 4 bottle case, but if you become a gold card member (free) then you get 20% every month for the first 7 days of each month bringing it down to $7.99 per case. They also come in a case of 12.

Drifted Off Track

First, I want to start off by saying that I feel like straight crap, I have drifted so far off my weight loss mission its unreal. However, I am determined to get back on because I need to lose at least 15-20 pounds before July 15 and that's my minimum. The problem is though I don't know how the hell to get back on my mission, I have absolutely no drive since I started my spring semester at school to deal with anything weight loss related. I'm sure that I have put back on some of the weight that I have previously lost, how much, I can't say because my mother hid the scale from me and my Wii board is in need of batteries...so I have no idea how much a presently way and frankly I'm a bit nervous to find out.

Food controls life...

While on aol about to check my email a link popped up:

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/amalia-negreponti/anorexia_b_1364462.html?icid=maing-grid7%7Cmain5%7Cdl12%7Csec1_lnk2%26pLid%3D145345

I was compelled to read it because the title caught my attention "I Felt a Shudder, Then Satisfaction" and I then looked at the picture.

This women decided to tell her story about her anorexia and it was very moving. Even though i am not anorexic it had me thinking about women with eating disroders, who eat when they're happy, sad, upset, angry whatever the case and refer to it as an obsession with food.

I think this is something everyone should read whether they are anorexic or not.

Gorgeous

Khloe Kardashian is a beautiful women and is sometimes made to feel less than that because of the media and her sisters Kim and Kourtney Kardashian which is sometimes mind boggling to me. I look at Khloe and think of the "average" size women in America....they have curves.

I am a plus size woman and its so damn annoying how the media sometimes portray us and the views that some people have about us. Why the fuck is my size an issue for you? I can't comprehend why it affects your ass so much that you sometimes feel the need to run your mouth and pass judgement.

Some people just need to grow the fuck up. Curves are beautiful! But if it bothers you so much then look the fuck away.....simple as that.

Have a great day everyone :-)